Confessions of a crazy mom

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growing-pains

It’s no secret that I’m doing a lot of things differently in my life these days. At the beginning of the school year, I started meditating every morning. For me, that means I have at least 10 minutes of stillness every day. I also go to yoga regularly, in fact this month I’ve been 17 times. That means I get a lot of quiet time to think. It’s amazing what you hear, when you take the time to be quiet and still and calm.

I feel different, I really do. There is peace within me that I have never experienced. I also have clarity about what I want and what I feel and what I believe to be true…and frankly, it feels amazing and empowering and scary. I feel really comfortable with all these changes and I don’t want to go back to living unconsciously and following along or not speaking up because I don’t want to offend anyone or not speaking up because I’m afraid I won’t be able to defend my point of view. What’s scary is that it means sometimes people I know and love aren’t going to like the changes in me and sometimes we are going to disagree and they’re going to want to defend their point of view. Sometimes the new me, who I really love, feels a little lonely and disconnected and isolated because she knows her thinking about a lot of things is very different from the people she knows. Even a change for the better can be extremely difficult.

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