My Family

If you already know me, you can skip this page, but if you don’t you may be wondering who I am and why I’m writing a blog.  My name is Jenny and I’m a stay-at-home mom to three amazing little girls.  Addy is eight, Avery is six, and Reilly is 5.  I have a fantastic husband,Tom, who supports me in everything I do.  I’d say our life is pretty typical for suburban America.  We live in a great neighborhood where we have lots of friends and our kids have tons of playmates.  I’m busy taking care of my house and my kids and driving my mini-van (UGH!!) all over town.

All my life, all I ever wanted was to be a mom, but here I am right in the middle of it and I’m thinking there has to be something more.  Don’t get me wrong, I love my kids, and I’m grateful to have the opportunity to stay home with them, but I’m well on my way to crazyville.  The day to day care of all these people wears me out…the monotony drains my spirit…I’ve seriously started to lose my mind.  I mean lose my mind in a literal sense…I used to think I was smart, but when was the last time I got to really use my brain.

Our Comedian Reilly

I had a bit of a wake-up call this past summer.  A lot of stuff that had been building up for a long time, kind of came crashing down.  I was forced to take a look at myself and my life and what I realized was scary.  “What if this dream I had of being a stay-at-home mom and spending my time caring for the people I love wasn’t enough?”  Of course I had heard it before…you can’t take care of anyone else, unless you are taking care of yourself, but I didn’t realize I wasn’t taking care of myself.  I didn’t have anything in my life that was just mine, that made me feel valuable as a woman, not as a wife or mother.  So I’ve spent the last few months getting better and thinking a lot about what I want to do for me and learning as much as I can.  One of the things I’ve really tried to work on is listening to my own intuition.

My Sweet Avery

My intuition is telling me to write.  Really, I don’t know where this is coming from.  I’ve never written anything for fun before, and I don’t know how good it will be, but it’s what I need to do.  I have spent my life believing that I was smart, but in a math/science kind of way, not in a creative way.  In fact, I would have told you without a doubt that I am NOT creative.  But that is changing, the creative juices are flowing and I’m doing all kinds of other things that I didn’t think I could do before…and you know what, it’s a lot of fun and it feels really good.  All of sudden, the fear isn’t in charge.

The Brilliant Addy

So, I’m blogging.  I’m blogging about my own journey…and I’m hoping people can relate.   I hope to make people think a little more about what others are going through and I hope to reach some other crazy moms out there who think they are alone in their doubt and anxiety…and if I can make a friend, make someone laugh or maybe even find my own passion then all the better!!

Me and My Girls